it's not easy being green

it's amazing how quickly time passes when you spend your time being unproductive. i feel as if i have this very important mission in life and that i am wasting precious time not recognising what it is and doing it. everyday i look for signs or clues around that would point me in my direction, i mean i know have everything i want to do in my head and were you to ask me i would rattle it off with such ease you would think it was rehearsed but still i idly take my time to make it happen. what's my purpose? i have to say that is one question that i constantly ask myself, what really is my purpose? am i being a good and productive human being. i guess i would have to admit that is one of my biggest fears, not fulfilling my fullest potential as a human.